12-13-12 .... and the arrival of the

Holly King! Smiles and cheer and a cornucopia of satsuma oranges bringing light to the dark lands and some smiles to  8 South East, the infusion suites at UW Med Center. Could see the mountains outside to the East and the sun shone below the cloud line and highlighted the new snow, with the few trees that had not been wind stripped of their autumn finery floating in the foggy foreground.

Yeah, I'm back again. I wonder each time... and I never quite know what to expect, but so far I tolerate the process well, and thanks to the love and support of those around me I am able to get through it although I am now starting to notice a pattern. It is hard to describe how it feels to know that this stuff that is not your blood is being mixed so that it will travel throughout the body. Completely. Of course that's the point, there are even things to help make the patient feel stronger while this is happening. I knew for the last 2 that I probably had like 2 days before effects kick in... well, and Saturday was it too. Wonderful to see those who came out for my survival/birthday party. I have survived 58 years, and that is with the humility of knowing that it is not by my own hand that I live. Someday I may recount the times (while I yet remember) that I have seen the scythe of the reaper flash by my nose.

Where was I....? It is now Friday the 21st of December 2012, the world still turns as it always has since any of us can recall, and it is sunset now which in more ancient times was the end of the day. The last 5 days have been more of a blur for me, not really able to rise before noon, and yet tired all day, and being asleep by midnight as though I had been training for the next marathon. Sometimes it seems as if I am running in sand... 

...wait a minute, what was I gonna do? I do try to keep up with life and what's happening, actually it is quite disturbing most of the time. Keeping it simple is easier than it sounds when you start counting your energy nickles and they don't go as far as they used. I am told I need to focus my strength on getting well, yet I feel it slipping by, I hope it doesn't take too long.